Then came Wesley.
If you have ever seen the movie Multiplicity with Michael Keaton, there's a line in that movie that goes something like.. when you keep making copies of something... they start to not come out so sharp... now I know that doesn't apply to my children. They aren't copies of me or my husband and I am not implying that they keep coming out less intelligent, but they are sort of replications. A roll of the dice, a chocolate in one of those assorted boxes. You really never know what you are going to get. This time we rolled the dice and got a reflux baby. He's lucky he's so adorable.
*** I had to stop typing because there was a shriek from the bathroom. Somebody left a surprise in the bathtub. Wildboy style. ***
Since the very day he was born, Wes has had reflux. His reflux is not the kind that Dylan had. Dylan was dubbed a "happy spitter". Dylan puked all day every day until he was 9 or 10 months old. He wasn't made uncomfortable about it and he gained weight and was thriving. The difference in Dylan's reflux and Wesley's reflux is that Wesley's is silent reflux. He rarely spits up, but he is in agonizing pain from it. He is constantly arching his back and in general discomfort. It's been very difficult these past four weeks trying to figure out exactly what was going on with him. I cut dairy out of my diet, as well as chocolate and coffee. Eating is not something I enjoy anymore, it's merely something I do to stay alive. I'm currently eliminating one thing at a time to see if I can pinpoint something that is bothering my baby. I might just be grasping at straws, but I won't stop until I figure this out. If it's just reflux, it's just reflux. But if there's any chance it's a food allergy I will find out.
We ended up taking Wes to the doctor about it Tuesday. I hate taking my kids to the doctor, so it's obviously something that has been consuming our lives. He started Wesley on Zantac. I have done my research and I am a little apprehensive about it. Zantac doesn't have a great reputation of being an effective medicine for reflux babies. Most end up on Prevacid.
Today is Wes' fourth day on Zantac and it was not until yesterday that we saw real improvement. Yesterday was the first day in a string of several days that I did not cry even once. When my baby is in pain and crying and I can't help him, it makes me cry. Add that on top of my other 3 wildboys that I'm spending less time with and the house I can't keep up with and the meals I want to cook but can't and wouldn't know what to cook because I can't eat anything.... I'm drowning most days. This too shall pass. It will get better. I will figure this out. Wes will grow out of reflux. But the right now is hard. Wes sleeps great, he takes long naps in the day. But when your baby has been screaming and then finally falls asleep, the last thing you want to do is wash dishes or cook. I end up pacing the house thinking he might wake up any minute. Then I go play with my kids because hell, I miss them.