Life has changed so much since my last post here. It has changed in so many good and bad ways but it has all been such an experience to learn and grow from.
My mother died late February 2015. A lot of me died with her that day.
It was the most awful thing, to see her in her final 6 days in a coma. She had an accident. No one found her in time. I have a lot of regret about that.
Our last phone conversation was on a Monday. She told me about her doctors appointment. We laughed. She told me she loved me and I told her I loved her too. I didn't know that was the last time.
Grief has such a funny way of manifesting in each person differently. This is still a learning experience for me.
The boys took it better than I thought. They were sad. They were quiet.
In the nearly 10 months since then, we have purchased a new home. It is absolutely wonderful. We went from living in a tiny 800 sq ft home with 6 family members, to a 3200 sq ft home (if you count the sun room and, yes, I do). We are not in city limits anymore and we are loving living in the outskirts of town. It's quiet out here. It's beautiful.
I go back to college in a week. I am taking on campus classes this semester. At the moment, I am not nervous or anxious or anything. I dread the work load. I took online classes last year before my mother passed and it was difficult for me to balance homeschooling, college and housekeeping.
I still try to find time for making. Making is what feeds my soul.
This is the last photo we took together in November of 2014
This is the latest photo of my family.
Wesley turns 3 January 6th.